Tomorrow would have been 5 years together. . . . . .just needed to get that out.
5 years of what i thought was forever, i thought wrong.
Some days im amazing, i feel strong and independent, focused and full of self confidence. Others sad, ugly and stupid. The good days are starting to outnumber the bad, So Yeah!!
He seems to have a knack for knowing when i am feeling great and starting to think, "Wow i really am better off without him." and then he calls or emails and i get sucked back down in my little hole of self loathing. Today was bad, Im not looking forward to tomorrow, but i am seeing glimmers of the light at the end of the tunnel.
I am trying to stretch towards that light like a sunflower stretches for the sun. Bending, turning, putting myself in new situations and experiences in order to move on and be happy with myself.
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I think they have beepers which announce our emotions. Heaven forbid we feel good without them by our sides. Go figure. I got a text message from an ex this week 30 seconds after I began to think about how wonderful life if. Well, life is still wonderful, and he is still an ass.
Many hugs to you darling.
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