Im going to be a mom.  Wow that felt weird to type that out.  This has to be the scariest most amazing thing that i've ever experienced.  I am 12 weeks, and im due in February.  Ive had problems in the past so i was reluctant to feel excited til i reached this point, and although i know there is still a small chance for heartbreak i feel more secure than i did before.  This is not the way i ever pictured having a baby, i always thought id be married or at least in a committed relationship but thats not the way it turned out.  Im trying not to get too depressed about that, it is what it is, I just hope im strong enough to do this myself.