I am a hopeless romantic, will read horrible cheesy romances morning, noon and night, watch every horrible chick flick that comes out and have ALWAYS maintained a secret hope that one day HE would show up and take me away to a snowy mountaintop cabin with a roaring fire, rose petal strewn brass bed and pledge his undying love and fidelity to lil ol me. . . . . . now obviously that has not happened, and for a while i became one of those horribly bitter women who thought (with damn good reason and examples) that all men were cheating vermin, good only for hours of really good sex when i got bored with the vibrator.  But that is slowly changing, i find myself sniffling over Kay Jewelers commercials, "Every kiss begins with Kay", and instead of sneering at the valentine decorations, wanting to tear them down or feeling a dagger to my heart and an overwhelming wave of loneliness and despair every time i see a happy couple embracing, laughing or even smiling  i feel , , , , ,okay.  Yes, somedays i do feel lonely and some men do suck, but i still do think that somewhere out there in the universe is someone who will love ME, and that will treat me the way i yearn to be loved. 


This valentines day i decided to treat myself, i dont have a date, im not in a relationship, but the last few months have been a lesson in learning to love me, so i bought myself a ring.  We can call it a promise ring.  Its a promise to myself.  To love myself, that quirky, practical girl with a romantic soft side hidden beneath the sarcasm.  My chosen treat was a silver band with three entertwined vines on the top.  So i promise this valentines day to 1- be strong, 2- be flexible, and 3- be open.  1-  Stay strong in my convictions, i am a lovely person who didnt deserve the way the ex treated me, and i need to stay strong in my resolve to tell him no.  2-  Be flexible, my way is not always the only or the right way, i need to be flexible in my view of the world and flexible in my allowances to myself, its okay that i am not perfect, i dont have to be.  3-  Be open to new opportunities and chances to experience life and love .